First of all, I just realized that I never officially said a huge THANK YOU to everyone who took the time to write guest posts for me last week. It was an amazing honor to be trusted to post some of the most personal and vulnerable moments in your lives, and to learn about what makes each one of you tick! Thank you thank you thank you!!
Last week while I was out playing in the desert, I quietly reached my 1-year CrossFit (and blog) anniversary. Well, sort of quietly. We “celebrated” by doing 365 burpees in the park in the middle of Moab, which took over a half hour to complete. Let me just say that, among everything else, if you had told me that in a year I would be gearing up to do 36 and 1/2 minutes of non-stop burpees just for fun, I would have laughed in your face and not even felt a little bit bad about it.
And yet, there I was, half the toes on my right foot totally numb for some reason, tiny sticks poking me in the chin ever time I went down, and at one point I almost put my face on top of a worm. How the heck had I gotten there, to that point, where I was so motivated to see what my body could do that I had opted out of cheeseburgers and milkshakes in favor of burpees in the park (to be fair, we caught up with our friends and got the cheeseburgers later, but still)?
In the last year, so much has changed in my life that I hardly recognize myself. Physically I look a little different, but more than anything my priorities feel like they are finally where they need to be–or at least close to it. What used to be important to me–like sleeping all day on the weekends, drinking lots of beer, and worrying about my weight–no longer seems like a big deal, but things I never used to think about–like the health of my gut, my hip mobility, and the way my actions impact my community–now dominate my daily thoughts. I started to think about the old beliefs that had shifted the most, and here are the first few that came to mind:
1. “Life is short and I want to enjoy it” is not a good reason to eat crap and sit on your butt. Because if you stop and think about it, ultimately the combination of those two activities does not result in a joyful life. Almost ever. Really.
2. Fat does not make you fat. Fat, from the correct source, is actually super good for you! I am so glad that I discovered this early in my life and didn’t have to go through life eating low fat yogurt and melba crackers. I would much rather eat bacon.
3. “I don’t want to get bulky” is the stupidest reason in the world not to lift weights. It is SO hard to get bulky period, let alone if you are a girl. Also, even if you are the type of girl who naturally builds muscle (Luckyyy!), you are unlikely to wake up one morning, look in the mirror, and think, “Oh my god where did these muscles come from!? I am huge!!” Giant muscles do not happen overnight, and especially do not happen without a lot of very concentrated effort set toward that very purpose. I’m not sure that I was necessarily worried about getting bulky when I started CrossFit, but now I definitely am not. If anything, I wish I could get more ”bulky.”
4. Your weight does not dictate how you look. This is one of the biggest ones for me. Over the last year, I have lost a total of about 10 lbs, but that number is such a poor reflection of the work I’ve put into my body that it almost feels pointless to even bring it up. Almost anyone can lose 10 lbs over the course of a few weeks. Not almost anyone can back squat their bodyweight, do a pull-up, or stare down a workout full of movements and weights they’ve never experienced before, and feel motivated instead of scared.
Even just these four items make me realize how impossible it will ever be to sum up all the things that have changed about me in the past year. But don’t worry, this won’t be the last post I dedicate to all the random crap I’ve learned over the past year–but I think it’s a good place to start, huh?