Quarter Life Crisis

Me and my twin brother, about 25 years ago

I have a lot to catch you guys up on, like our drop-in WOD at CrossFit Invictus and our triumphant return to the land of sugar and grains after our Whole30 (which ended up being more of a Whole24.5…), but today is my 25th birthday, so I thought it was time for a little introspection. Get excited.

For some reason, 25 feels like kind of a big deal, and not just because people keep saying, “Ooh you’re turning 25! Thats a big deal!” The first quarter of my life is over, and it feels like it’s time to start paying attention to what I’m doing. Suddenly the concept of the rest of my life doesn’t seem so abstract. Does this make me an adult? Should I be making big life decisions now? Should I stop listening to Disney music and start wearing shoes at work and wake up early on the weekends and get better about flossing? Whoa. Let’s not get ahead of ourselves, people.

Let me start off by saying that I was pretty dang excited to turn 24. My 23rd year was a major bust, full of what seemed like a million great ideas that absolutely flopped and left me feeling exhausted and hopeless. Luckily, my 24th year did not disappoint. I learned a lot about myself in this past year–about what I’m capable of, what my values are, and what my future might look like. And I attribute a lot of that to CrossFit. But instead of just looking back at the past year, this birthday seems just a little heavier, and I can’t help but take a longer view of the experiences, people, places, and moments that have shaped my life thus far. Aaaand it’s a little overwhelming. Cue my quarter-life-crisis, during which I have spent the last several weeks quietly pondering what I could have done better (college), what I wish I would have stuck with (skiing, singing) or started sooner (CrossFit), all while trying to remind myself that 25 is really NOT that old.

So instead of giving myself heartburn by dwelling on how I got here (ok that sentence does make me feel kind of old), I want to focus on where I’m going next. I’m excited to be 25 because I’m excited to keep moving forward, to take myself a little more seriously, and to hopefully come closer to figuring out my place in the world. Above all, In the last 24 years I have learned that being able to adapt to routine is just as important as adapting to change, and I hope I can continue to find the balance between those two things.

I am excited to see where I will be living in the next few years, where I will be working, and whether my daily life will look much different. I am hoping to go back to school in some capacity, to move into a house that has a dishwasher and/or clothes dryer and/or yard, and I am excited to watch Brandon finish school and become a Physician’s Assistant. I can’t wait to continue to improve my performance at CrossFit, to one day get my Level 1 certification, to learn more about balancing my life and diet, and to someday maybe even write a book about it. I am looking forward to reading more books, running more miles, climbing more mountains, lifting more weights, eating more kale, and of course… writing more blog posts.

 

  • Kelsi

    Quarter-life crises hit everyone a little differently. Mine hit at age 26. Sometimes it was all I could do to put one foot in front of the other. Other days I felt like She-Ra and was all, “I’m going to do a triathalon and join an all-girl punk bank and fix this leaky toilet all by myself! Yeah bitch, magnets!” Most of the time, I landed somewhere in the middle, gradually and steadily creeping towards my long-term goals.

    Happy birthday and enjoy your milestone!

    • clairechapman

      Hopefully I’ll get way with just this short period of introspection, but I could definitely still have my all-girl-punk-band days in front of me :)

  • winetoweights

    Ahh.. I had a similar thing at 30 this year! Like really, am I THAT old, and there is so much I haven’t done, and I honestly don’t know what I want to do yet! It stressed me out, but I’m okay now lol.
    25 is nothing! :) (says us old folks..). Seems like you’ve learned a ton in the last year and you can continue to learn in the next few!!
    Happy birthday, girlie!!

    • clairechapman

      Thank you thank you! I have no idea what I want to do either… And I think I might have to spend the next three quarters of my life trying to be ok with that!

  • Lindz

    Love this and happy birthday!

  • Salt, Dogs, and Duct Tape

    Happy birthday! I turn 27 in two months and I just decided to not worry about it until Dirty 30. At this point it seems like the best course is to keep trying different things until something works, there’s no formula. Glad this past year was good! All the best in the new one!

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